Try to let yourself really feel any sadness, despair and guilt that might be anywhere inside you. Get the intellectual side of you that says/knows that you should not be feeling those things to shut up for a while. For just a while feel those feelings instead of suppressing them.

You tried
You tried your best
You did stuff
You did what you thought you should
But it all got fucked up
It didn’t go to plan
It went wrong
Then it went more wrong
You’re tied up
You fucked up
And now you’re tied up
And you can’t get out
And now you suffer
And even worse you feel guilt
You can see but you can’t move
And intellectually you know you’re wrong
That it wasn’t just you who determined how things transpired
That things aren’t bad
That you’re not actually tied up
That if you were tied up, you could free yourself
And that even if you were tied up and couldn’t get free it wouldn’t matter anyway
But fuck all that intellectual noise
You still 100% feel that you’re tied up, can never get out, and despair

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